The Kiss-Cam is so gay...

My evolution as an LGBTQ inclusively minded individual can be credited to many different experiences like movies, books and a diversifying social life, but one that stands out very clearly in my past, happened while attending a Chicago Blackhawks game at the United Center. During a stoppage of play the Jumbotron kiss-cam gag began, and the final couple featured in the cutout of a heart, with loud kissy sounds and a cheesy 80s rock ballad, were two of the opposing team male players sitting on their bench side-by-side. The crowd laughed, and at the time even I had a 6th grade schoolyard inclination to giggle. I immediately felt pretty ashamed to witness something live-action that seemingly was this harmless joke to many, but also a brash reminder to those attending that don't exclusively identify as heterosexual (closeted or not), do not warrant the same legitimacy as the rest; that some or most of what they find attracts them to a romantic partner has been specifically and exclusively shown as just an emasculating joke. 

It warms my heart, so very much to watch this, and see this trend beautifully come full circle, I found this video from an entire blog post about this very subject matter:


Evolve, revise and repeat (100-day vlog challenge)

A few weeks back, my day job cut me loose. Frankly, my performance was struggling and it felt like my skills as an engineer drafter were exponentially dissipating, while my skills with my camera were rapidly expanding. This was not some overnight switch, this was 6-years of small steps to get where I'm at today.

Where am I today? Well I'm ready to be a professional videographer and photographer.  Can I tell you how or why I know I'm ready, nope, nor does that really matter to me anymore. The fact is, I believe it. The key word is, "I", for that a long time I kept thinking that somebody was going to come along and tell me, "hey you are ready, you have value, go do what you love". After waiting for this magic-gatekeeper to come along and set me free, I learned that I'm the gate-keeper. I never needed permission, I only needed confidence.

You are what you do, and what I do is point my camera at everything, and tell stories with the what I capture. So I'm going to do that, and I'm going to it constantly.

The other thing I do with great love and pride is parent. For financial reasons we have pulled Logan out of day-care and I will be a stay-at-home parent. I will spend my day with Logan, we will go on great adventures and document much of it on camera, and my nights/weekends are available for me to booked for paid gigs.

Right now, those paid gigs are spares, which will change, but I will not bide my time,  instead I will vlog (vlog is essentially like a video journal). I have two-episodes finished (see below) and a third one coming soon, these 3 span about 2.5-weeks. I like the content, I had fun making them, but I think I will change the format. I had been stretching days of footage into one lengthy consumable video, thinking, "I don't want to annoy people with a video to watch everyday", but now I'm thinking that was a negative point-of-view, and in actuality I should be cutting one vlog video a day. Some other changes is that I will not be making them with the iOS app Cameo anymore, I love the ease and connivence of their platform (especially the mobility of editing on my iphone 6+), but I need to be cutting on the tools I will use for my professional work, I need to constantly hone my craft. Quality, efficiency and consistency, is the hallmark of a great story-teller, and I intend to be nothing less.

Starting today, I will make 100 vlogs, in 100 days. Strap-in, get a snack and enjoy the show.