Trans Day of Remembrance - You care more than you know

This day is to remember the lives lost to anti-trans violence; this violence may be the lack of a support system correlating to a trans person's self-harm, as well as hate-crime violence.

Why I think many of us care more than we know, is based on two questions.

  1. How many people don't feel, "Man enough", or "woman enough"?
  2. Who has not reacted to this insecurity by committing a violent act to themselves, or another? For example: shame, judgement, hatred, over-consumption, irrational risk taking and unhealthy sexual relationships.

Answer: Everyone

(revision: except one anonymous commenter, the Neo of gender security,


Stop pretending that this is exclusively their problem, trans* people would all be fine, if it wasn't for everyone else projecting their fears and insecurities on to those who are challenging the limitations of gender expression.

These people are revolutionary individuals, and not only do we owe them our acceptance (culturally and institutionally), we also owe them gratitude. Trans* people show us all that we are not slaves to the esthetic; we are boundless, unique and living proof that normal is a lie. 

*when you see the word, "Trans*", the asterisk modifies the definition to include individuals of a wider spectrum of gender expression, examples being and not limited to: Transgender, Drag Queen, Gender Queer, Agender, Bigender and exct..

Photo By: Shawn P. Boyle @ 2015 Chicago Pride Parade

Photo By: Shawn P. Boyle @ 2015 Chicago Pride Parade

Evolve, revise and repeat (100-day vlog challenge)

A few weeks back, my day job cut me loose. Frankly, my performance was struggling and it felt like my skills as an engineer drafter were exponentially dissipating, while my skills with my camera were rapidly expanding. This was not some overnight switch, this was 6-years of small steps to get where I'm at today.

Where am I today? Well I'm ready to be a professional videographer and photographer.  Can I tell you how or why I know I'm ready, nope, nor does that really matter to me anymore. The fact is, I believe it. The key word is, "I", for that a long time I kept thinking that somebody was going to come along and tell me, "hey you are ready, you have value, go do what you love". After waiting for this magic-gatekeeper to come along and set me free, I learned that I'm the gate-keeper. I never needed permission, I only needed confidence.

You are what you do, and what I do is point my camera at everything, and tell stories with the what I capture. So I'm going to do that, and I'm going to it constantly.

The other thing I do with great love and pride is parent. For financial reasons we have pulled Logan out of day-care and I will be a stay-at-home parent. I will spend my day with Logan, we will go on great adventures and document much of it on camera, and my nights/weekends are available for me to booked for paid gigs.

Right now, those paid gigs are spares, which will change, but I will not bide my time,  instead I will vlog (vlog is essentially like a video journal). I have two-episodes finished (see below) and a third one coming soon, these 3 span about 2.5-weeks. I like the content, I had fun making them, but I think I will change the format. I had been stretching days of footage into one lengthy consumable video, thinking, "I don't want to annoy people with a video to watch everyday", but now I'm thinking that was a negative point-of-view, and in actuality I should be cutting one vlog video a day. Some other changes is that I will not be making them with the iOS app Cameo anymore, I love the ease and connivence of their platform (especially the mobility of editing on my iphone 6+), but I need to be cutting on the tools I will use for my professional work, I need to constantly hone my craft. Quality, efficiency and consistency, is the hallmark of a great story-teller, and I intend to be nothing less.

Starting today, I will make 100 vlogs, in 100 days. Strap-in, get a snack and enjoy the show.